My Love For Star Wars in a Party

When I was 11, I received my first copy of Star Wars Insider from Lucasfilm after writing a letter to George Lucas (I did not get reply from him, alas).  Within the issue, they had a section where they printed letters from fans and readers.  One letter started out as:

Dear Insider,

I have been a Star Wars fan for over 20 years…

That sentence has stuck with me throughout my life.  Why?  Because family and friends thought I was going through a “fad” or “stage” in life with my Star Wars obsession.  And there is nothing that irks me more, even at that young age, than people thinking I’ll grow out of something or won’t like something as much in a while.  I saw that sentence and thought, “I want to be a Star Wars fan for over 20 years as well.”

I haven’t reached 20 years, but I’m currently at 18 years.  Actually, technically I’m over 20 years if you count when I first saw Star Wars, but I only count the age when I became obsessed as the starting point in my Star Wars journey.

Throughout this journey I have:

Yup, that Star Wars party happened this past weekend.  Why?  Because what better time to celebrate my true love than around Valentine’s Day?

I know “first annual” is an oxymoron of sorts, but I wanted to make it clear that this is something that will be continual on a yearly basis.  Due to some bad weather the day before, we only had seven people show up (12 RSVP’d as a yes) but I was more than happy with that!  This was blue_milkthe greatest party I could ever throw, in my opinion.

And, oh the discussions!  It was so wonderful to sit with friends, drink some wine and blue milk (yes, I had some blue milk and Yoda soda), watch a Star Wars movie, and discuss Star Wars for four hours.  Heaven.

What movie did we watch?  Ah, the suspense!  No one knew until they showed up and there was a prize for those who guessed correctly.  Surprisingly, there were a lot of ROTS guesses, which I thought was very strange.

But the movie I chose was The Force Awakens for two reasons: 1) In honor of my daughter, whom I hope will grow to be like Rey, and 2) It was the one movie I had not seen and discussed with a lot of my friends.

To reiterate: the discussions!  I have missed talking about Star Wars and guessing what will be coming next with good friends.  Here were my favorite discussions that happened during the party…please chime in with any thoughts you might have as well.

1. The Force Vision/Knights of Ren

When Rey touches Luke’s lightsaber on Takodona, there a bunch of scenes that go by very quickly.  One of them involves what looks like a knights-of-renmassacre by the Knights of Ren, with Kylo leading them with a lightsaber in the rain.  We don’t know where this is or what happened.  Rey sees someone coming towards her who looks like they are about to kill her, but instead gets killed by Kylo Ren.  When Kylo Ren starts stepping towards her, she gets scared and backs up, where the scene immediately shifts to a young Rey being left behind on Jakku with Unkar Plutt dragging her away.

My friend brought up this theory: what if Kylo Ren had, in fact, saved a young Rey (though we are seeing her as an adult) from another Knight of Ren?  That Knight of Ren could have been going to kill Rey as part of the massacre, but Kylo Ren steps in to save her.  He then takes her to Jakku where she is left behind, which would explain why it seems like Kylo Ren knows her.  Why would he save her? That’s the question.  Guilt?  Is he related to her?  If so – why wouldn’t Han recognize her?

When I previously thought about this scene, I thought Rey was seeing some insight into what happened when Kylo Ren turned to the dark side and those were all of Luke’s Jedi pupils.  I never thought about her actually being there, but the more I think about it, the more I like this theory and it seems to make sense.

2.The Force Vision/Artoo Shut Down

This is my theory and I have brought it up before, but it did become a discussion point again at the party.  In the Force vision, we see Luke put a hand on Artoo.  Artoo is clearly “awake” here and not in hibernation.  Is Luke shutting Artoo down and somehow using the Force to make sure the next time he awakes, it will be because of Rey?

This theory is a little far-fetched, but I keep coming back to it, because WHY are they showing Artoo in this vision?  It could be because Abrams wanted to keep Luke as hidden as possible until the end of the movie, but I also don’t think there were any throwaways in this movie.  They could have not had this scene if he wanted Luke to remain hidden.  Why show Artoo?

I believe Artoo was getting some kind of direction here and it is interesting that he is “awakened” just when Rey shows up on D’Qar.

Here’s a video of the Force vision for your reference:

3. Your favorite 15-20 minutes in Star Wars

This was a question someone asked at the end of the party.  What is your favorite 15-20 minutes out of all the Star Wars movies?

I thought that would be hard and there were scenes that flit across my brain very fast as I tried to think of something.  I thought of Amidala speaking to the senate (“I was not elected to watch my people suffer and die…”), I remembered Luke staring out at the binary sunset, I thought about Vader revealing he is Luke’s father, I thought about Rey rescuing BB-8, I remember Order 66, I remember Leia and Han’s exchange before he went into carbonite (“I love you!”  “I know.”), but then one part of the saga stood out to me the most.

My favorite scene in the Star Wars saga would be the end of Return of the Jedi.  Luke is trying to control his emotions but Vader gets to him when he realizes that Luke has a sister and says he will turn her to the dark side.  Luke loses it and goes after Vader with such hatred and bests him in their final lightsaber match.  He cuts of his hand in anger – only to hear the Emperor’s sinister laugh behind him.  The Emperor is sure of his victory; sure that Luke will take Vader’s place.  And then….Luke turns away from the dark side.  Seeing his own hand cut off, he turns to the Emperor and tells him:

You failed your highness.  I am a Jedi, like my father before me.

It makes me want to woop with joy every time I see that scene.  Talk about good triumphing over all!  Talk about doing the right thing even when you know it means death!  Aggggh that scene – everything about it: the lightsabers, the ominous music, the Emperor’s moment of triumph – only to have Luke come out on top and throw away his lightsaber.

The best.  That is, in my eyes, the best scene from the entire saga.


My party was wonderful and I had a great time.  It’s the perfect thing for me to look forward to since I’m not a fan of Valentine’s Day.  This is a way to celebrate my true love in a way that honors it.

I can’t wait until next year’s party.


That Moment You Fell in Love

I want to know the exact moment you fell in love with Star Wars.  Does it stand out to you?  Or was is it something you were surrounded with from a young age so you don’t know a time without it?

My love affair with Star Wars was one of those moments when you walk into the room, see someone’s face, and know you will never be the same again.  Except with me, I walked into the room where my parents and sister were watching a movie and complained they weren’t letting me watch what I wanted to watch.  My family was always staunch believers in only 1 TV per household because they thought reading a book was so much better.

Anyway, in the midst of my complaints and attitude, I looked over at the TV and saw something riveting.  It was a strange, small machine AtST Hothwalking on two legs in the background of these much taller walking vehicles.  Little did I know, but I had come into the room right during the Battle of Hoth.  And what a GREAT scene to come into.  Funnily, most people don’t remember or notice that there were AT-ST’s on Hoth since it’s the moment of glory for the Imperial Walkers/AT-AT’s.  But I remember it clear as day because it was the moment I walked into something that changed my life forever.

I gave some feeble complaints for about two to three minutes more but then decided I should just sit down and watch it, because when Vader entered the picture (pun!), I was done.  I watched the entire movie and then begged my parents to let me see more.  I was allowed to watch ANH the next day, and I re-watched ESB and then ROTJ.  I was changed forever, in Vader Valentinethe non-corniest way of saying that.  I mean, I feel like since I have a whole blog devoted to Star Wars that I’m in a safe zone now, right?

So, since I honestly do not like Valentine’s Day and think it to be a complete waste of time and money (and I think the appropriate name should be Singles Awareness Day), I thought I’d make my own ode to Star Wars and my first love ever.

Ahem.  Get ready for some epic poetry.

I remember when I first laid eyes on you

And my world was completely changed

In that moment, I just knew

My life was about to be rearranged

There was something about the expanse of white snow

Those strange mechanical two-legged beings

And everyone running to and fro

I knew I would never be free of these feelings

So on this holiday I despise the most

I instead want to raise a toast

May our love only continue to grow;

All you have to say is, “I know.”

Okay, I hope you guys laughed more than were creeped out.  Safe zone, remember???

So share, please.  Tell me when you first began your love story with Star Wars. 

I’m off to Arizona tomorrow morning on a 6am flight! WOOO.  Goodbye 3.5’ of snow!  Goodbye -2 degrees weather!  Helllooooo 80+ degrees.  As much as I don’t like Valentine’s Day, it will kind of suck to be at a wedding (albeit a warm one) by myself.  I’ll be spending Valentine’s Day like this:

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Tosche Station Finds: Valentine’s Day/February

This is the first in what I hope to be monthly posts on cool Star Wars stuff I’ve found while browsing the internet.  Honestly, I could probably make this a weekly thing (lol), but I know it’s not for everyone so I’ll stick to monthly.

Tosche Station Finds are what I would buy if a) I had all the money in the world b) had a place for all this Star Wars stuff and c) had a husband whom I could willingly bestow tons of Star Wars gifts upon.  I’ll try to keep the paraphernalia classy and not super obvious.  Even though I have a house now, it’s still littered with Star Wars stuff, but it’s just not so in your face like when I lived with my parents and every wall was littered with Star Wars posters.

I figured I would start the first round off with Star Wars finds for Valentine’s Day.  Personally, I hate Valentine’s Day, but if I got some Star Wars stuff, it might make it a wee better.

What would Valentine’s Day be without the multitude of cards designed to show your undying love or devotion to certain Jedi or Sith?

StefaliciousDesigns on Etsy has some cute Star Wars cards as a pdf that you can download and print.  Aren’t the sayings just adorable?

Head over to StefaliciousDesigns on Etsy to get you these!

Head over to StefaliciousDesigns on Etsy to get these!

With those cards, head over to GelertDesign where you can buy your coffee or tea lover some mugs that lets your lover know that you know they love you. This person sells tons of other geeky wonderfulness, so you could get a multitude of Harry Potter, Star Wars, and Lord of the Rings, stuff.

You'll find this and more at Gelert Design on Etsy

You’ll find this and more at Gelert Design on Etsy

But you need to fill those mugs with something right?  ThinkGeek has some Star Wars breakfast beverages which takes the hard part out of guessing what they like!  Not sure if they like coffee or tea?  How about hot chocolate?  Don’t worry, it’s all there in this one purchase.  (By the way – I have some of the dark roast coffee unopened.  My husband and I don’t drink coffee, so if you’d like to buy it from me, I’ll sell it to you! Leave a comment and we can discuss.)

ThinkGeek is just awesome

ThinkGeek is just awesome

And what about some chocolate on the side?  We’ve got some Han Solo Carbonite chocolate (3 in a container), or chocolates (24) of with Boba Fett, Yoda, Darth Vader, and R2-D2 from SugarandSpicearts.

Now, if you are of the wealthier kind, we have the final touch to this gift: A dozen roses (I personally favor orchids or sunflowers) in this handmade ceramic vase by SureFootedDreamer.  You will have surely won them over.

I hope I’ve introduced you to some unique artisans and Tosche Station finds.  I feel slightly better about Valentine’s Day now.  Okay, I still don’t like it and think it’s a dumb holiday (To this day, I call it “Single’s Awareness Day”), but if I got these gifts, even my cold, frozen-over Carbonite heart would melt like Han Solo.

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