Haiku Me Friday! Whine, mope, and anger…

Brooding Kylo Ren An uncle and grandfather Runs in the family

Brooding Kylo Ren
An uncle and grandfather
Runs in the family

I’m so mopey today.  I’m mopey and angry and annoyed at my health.  I finally saw a specialist yesterday for my ongoing issues and I have chronic sinusitis.  It’s basically a cold that has a bacterial (as opposed to viral) component which is why it’s not going away.  I was excited to find out that I could get treatment in the form of super intense antibiotics…and then he told me he can’t give me anything because I’m breastfeeding and they would affect the baby.  So he said I would have to make a decision to either quit breastfeeding or continue breastfeeding and then either hope it resolves itself or get the antibiotics when I’m done.

On top of that, I’ve had two weeks of pain from mastitis and other breastfeeding issues.  I’m on my second round of antibiotics in 1.5 months (first was for strep throat last month) and I’m coming to this weird decision on if I even want to continue breastfeeding.  My goal was one year but things change.

Anyway, this honestly got me thinking about the whiners and mopers in the Star Wars trilogies.  We have some fabulous ones, so here they come:

 

In third place we get…

KYLO REN!

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(said in an announcer’s voice…think Price is Right)

Kylo Ren is a brooding, dark wannabe Sith who likes to spend long hours pondering why he feels a pull to the light side.  He mopes about his draw to the light side and when he gets angry, he takes his lightsaber out to destroy crucial equipment!  When in doubt, slash it out!  Give a hand to our runner up – Kylo Ren!

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The second place award goes to…

LUKE SKYWALKER!

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A fine young man who doesn’t mope as much, but really likes to whine when things get down.  He’s not satisfied with having to do an honest day’s work like most normal people – instead he wants to go to Tosche Station to pick up power converters!  The cherry on top is when he wistfully stares out into the sunset and you can internally hear his moping and whining that he’s stuck on Tatooine.  Though he improves over 3 films, he gets second place for his wonderful, beautifully delivered Tosche Station whine.  Give it up for Luke Skywalker!

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And you must know who the final winner is now!  Our coveted first place award goes to…

ANAKIN SKYWALKER!

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It must run in the family, folks.  Anakin Skywalker whines, mopes, gets annoyed, and angry in every movie of the Prequel Trilogy!  You can’t beat that.  He starts off as a young boy annoyed at the Jedi Council with a little bit of cheek; he then moves up to a sulking teenager who whines that everyone is holding him back; and finally becomes a man that is so angry he turns into Darth Vader.  Nothing beats his whining and moping in AOTC though!  Almost all his dialogue is some form of a whine which makes him most deserving of first place!

minions-clapping

 

Okay, that made me feel better.  You can go about your business…

Haiku Me Friday! Luke’s Solidarity

A single Jedi Alone for most of his life Will Rey bring a change?

A single Jedi
Alone for most of his life
Will Rey bring a change?

I had a strange realization last night.  Luke is alone as a Jedi for most of his life.  The fate of the Jedi rests on him as soon as Obi-Wan died.  It’s such a strong juxtaposition compared to the Prequels where we see the Jedi in numbers.  In TFA it’s worse than it ever was – he’s a hermit on Ahch-To with no other human beings around.  He retreats due to failures and it seems like he may not want to train Jedi again…perhaps it’s come full circle and he has the same feelings as Yoda?  Perhaps he will also tell Rey he’s too old to train another Jedi?  Too scared of failure?

From reading Bloodline, the book indicated that he spent time with Ben Solo and worked to train him but it didn’t seem to imply that he had ever gone off in search of other Jedi to build a Council or anything similar to what they had in the PT.

Will Rey change this?  I wonder if this next Sequel Trilogy will leave us with the feeling that the Jedi will eventually expand in numbers?  Or will it only be Luke and Rey taking on the world?

How Star Wars Made Me Who I Am Today

On the surface, Star Wars is a story about good versus evil.  It can seem simplistic to anyone who does not delve into the lair of the Sarlacc to find out as much as possible about the saga.

But it’s so much more than that as any fan can attest to.  It’s changed our lives to a varying degree or has been a guiding point for some of us throughout our life.

I was faced with a tough situation recently that brought the wisdom of Star Wars to the forefront of my mind.  I began to think about the way Star Wars has helped me throughout my years since I began to be obsessed with it.

 

Ages 8-10

This was when I first started getting into Star Wars.  Only the OT was available at that point and I used Star Wars to understand the classic good versus evil.  I was more simplistic back then and when I thought about “life” as a whole, it was black and white.

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What helped me the most was the part in ESB where Luke asks Yoda:

“Is the dark side stronger?”

“No… no… no.  Quicker, easier, more seductive.”

“But how am I to know the good side from the bad?”

“You will know.  When you are calm, at peace.”

So simple, but just what I needed at that point in my life.  Luke asks the point blank question on if the dark side is stronger and Yoda doesn’t give a wishy-washy answer.  The answer was no.

 

Pre-Teens (10-12)

I began to get restless at this age.  I understood there was more out there but I couldn’t quite grasp it yet.  I got antsy and frustrated.  Middle school was crueler, harder.  TPM came out when I was 11 and that’s when I began again to look at not just good versus evil, but being a better person as well.

qui gon and obi wanIt was the Jedi who guided me at this point.  Being introduced to the Jedi Council and hearing Qui-Gon Jinn’s advice to Obi-Wan encouraged me to pretend that I was also a Jedi Apprentice.

I also watched Luke’s journey more closely, understanding that he took a hard journey to become the Jedi that we knew him to be at the end of ROTJ.  It’s not always easy to do right, but it’s what you should do.

I know I’ve mentioned this before, but during this time I kept a “Jedi Journal”.  Each day I would write down ways where I failed to live up the Jedi standard and how to improve.  Looking back, it sounds a little extreme, but it did help me become a lot more aware of my actions.

 

Angsty Teens (13-18)

I think this was one of the hardest parts of my life as the bullying began in middle school and I tried to find my place in high school.  I was different, nerdy, strange, and openly known as being obsessed with Star Wars.  Getting up and going to school was so difficult in the beginning, but gradually it became easier as people realized I didn’t care what they thought.  My friends were my friends because they liked me, not what I wore or what I loved.  That’s not to say I didn’t struggle – but I think this time period taught me to find myself and remain firm.

I had my first boyfriend whom I went out with for 2.5 years in high school and I remember he struggled with going out with *me*.  He was more padme leiapopular than I was, fit in more, and many people couldn’t understand why he would want to be with me.  (Yes, I know, looking back, I’m not sure why I stayed with him that long but hindsight is 20/20.)  In turn, that made me feel more out of place because I wasn’t necessarily accepted by his friends and my friends also felt uncomfortable around him.  It was a strange, isolating experience.

I gravitated towards the women of Star Wars during this time period: Padmé and Leia.  I liked how Amidala was in TPM, strong and just didn’t give a hoot what others thought about her decisions.  I loved Leia’s spunk and how she was a princess, Han a smuggler, and yet they still ended up together.  Each woman knew they were smart and didn’t care what people thought of them.

 

College (18-23)

For the first time in my life, I don’t think I stayed true to myself during my freshman year of college.  I had a roommate who loved to party and I thought that was what I was supposed to do too.  I went out Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights…even when all I wanted to do was stay in and watch a movie.  I dabbled with different men and learned how to look “hot”.  She was cruel, judgmental, and selfish, yet I thought that somehow translated to confident when it was anything but.  By hanging out with her so much, I also became similar to her than I like to admit.

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I remember being home in between freshman and sophomore year for summer and feeling so much more relaxed.  I realized I hadn’t watched Star Wars once during that freshman year.  I had given up on my Hyperspace/starwars.com blog and had let my love for Star Wars fade.  I began watching the movies again and also realized how far I had strayed from whom I was.  Me…who had always prided myself in staying true to my roots.   Yes, people knew I loved Star Wars, it’s not like I hid it, but I had forgotten why I loved it.  That’s the most essential puzzle piece to being the level of fan that I am.

I went back into sophomore year with an effort to be more of who I was.  I had the same roommate (really bad call) and it hit the fan pretty fast, but I’m proud that I stuck to my gut feeling that I wasn’t the person I wanted to be when I was with her.  Our “friendship” fell apart and our time together was an icy standoff for the remaining 5 months of sophomore year.

As I separated myself from her and her lifestyle, the rest of my college ride went pretty smoothly.  I did not party as much, I studied more and had a few boyfriends.  The nicest of those men was a scoundrel who is now my husband.

 

The Dawn of Marriage (23-28)

Being married has come with way more difficulties than people ever tell you.  Or perhaps they try to tell you but you believe your love is the strongest ever and it’s not hard at all.  Marriage is hard work and it’s hard work every single day.  Some days are not so hard, but other days are the hardest thing in the world.  Yet, it’s rewarding and gratifying at the same time if you give it patience and watch it grow like a young plant.

anakin and padmeI’ve realized in the past 5 years that good and evil are not so clear cut as I may have thought when I was growing up.  Being an exemplary Jedi is not as easy as I thought either.  Sometimes we struggle or don’t do what we know we should do.

Rewatching the saga during my marriage has made me realize more than a few things, but it’s been Anakin’s turn to the dark side that has always stayed with me.

Anakin goes to the dark side to save Padmé.  I might not have seen the significance of this when ROTS first came out, but I get it more now.  Anakin is not really doing what is wrong in his eyes because to him — it’s an act of selflessness.  He will do anything to save the woman he loves and is there anything wrong with that?  Yes, obviously we know there is, but it makes me feel for him.  I realize that sometimes our choices seem right to us and they make sense, but you’re caught up in a mess of mynocks before you can change your mind.  At that point, you just roll with it and it gets harder and harder to get out.

Which is why it’s good to have a support system and be truthful with your spouse.  Whenever Padmé and Anakin began to get into a conversation where honesty could have changed their future, it flat lined and they avoided digging deeper.  The secrets they hid from each other, never mind keeping their relationship a secret from the outside world, put a large strain on their marriage.  I see that and am reminded of how fragile a marriage, or any relationship, is unless you are both honest and keep communication flowing.

 

Present Day (28-?)

Recently, I’ve seen some of my friends go through hard times in their own marriage, with discussions of divorce and counseling circulating.  They ask for advice, but really, who am I to give it?  It’s not my relationship and the problems they have are not ones I have so it’s hard for me to relate.  The one line I keep coming back to is when Luke wants to change Han’s mind in ANH but Leia says,

He’s got to follow his own path. No one can choose it for him.

I can only be here for my friends, I can’t fight a war for them and I most certainly cannot give advice.  Nor do I want to.  They have to follow their own path and make their own decisions, no one else can do that.

There are also a few things already at work within me since TFA was released.  I find myself emulating Rey in the most random of circumstances.  As I work on moving things out of the guest bedroom to make way for a new family member, I find myself doing a lot more than I used to.  I’ve been trying to figure out power tools, installing shelves myself, and I even did half of the diaper changing table before my husband woke up!  It’s this small voice in the back that says, “I bet Rey would have been able to do this herself.”

rey at home on jakku

I’m entering a new stage of my life right now.  I can feel my little Jedi kicking within me and wonder how Star Wars will continue to shape my life.  How can I show her to be self-sufficient like Rey?  To be smart like Padmé?  To not care what other people think?  To work for justice and peace in our galaxy?  To know good versus evil?

How will I pull from Star Wars to continue to change my life and possibly hers, even if it’s indirectly?

 

Haiku Me Friday! Roger, Roger!

Droids. Roger, Roger. No empathetic thinking Hardened for battle.

Droids. Roger, Roger.
No empathetic thinking
Hardened for battle.

I loved battle droids when I first saw TPM.  Their “Roger, Roger”s were so fabulous and when I was younger, I thought it was hilarious.  I watched TPM again this past weekend and I was brought back to all these sentimental memories I have of playing games with my two little brothers.

I would go, “Activate the droids!” and my brother would say, “Yes, Sir!”

Then all three of us would huddle collapsed together, just like the scene before the battle against the Gungans, and I would sing the battle droid/Trade Federation music.  We’d three of us rise together in that mechanical motion, grab our blasters from our back, and start marching.

That’s where the game would end because we couldn’t do much else other than march and “pew, pew!” occasionally.  We’d just start all over again.

Another one of my favorites was when two of us would be Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan (I was always Qui-Gon) trying to get through the federation doors in the beginning of the movie.  One of my brother’s would go, “Master, Destroyers!” and the other brother would roll into the area and start blasting.  After deflecting a few shots, we’d super speed run away.

I love TPM.  As I get older, I realize why people don’t like it.  The scenes are short and clipped, there is not a lot of emotional connection to the characters, and Jar Jar can get annoying.  But I think for a lot of the people who were young children when TPM came out, it was quite good.  The faster pace was closer to what we were used to when watching TV.  There were enough planets and ships to keep our attention.  The talking got boring but I remember just ignoring that in the theater.

As for the characters, I loved Amidala (not so much when she was herself as Padmé, I found her annoying) and thought she was a strong role model to look up to.  I also adored Qui-Gon and the whole system of the Jedi Council.  I liked how Qui-Gon disobeyed the Jedi Council and must do what he thinks is right, but was still a good person.  It taught me that you can go against the grain of what everyone is telling you to do, but still be an alright person.  It doesn’t mean you’re evil.  It was fascinating to see the Jedi before Luke Skywalker.  There were lots of Jedi and there was Yoda again!  Yoda remained unchanged other than he didn’t live on a yucky swamp planet anymore.

So for those who like to hate on TPM, just remember that it was (and still is) a wonderful movie for many of us who grew up with it. And didn’t George Lucas make Star Wars originally for children?

(P.S. An online syllable counter says “hardened” is 3 syllables, but I don’t know anyone who pronounces it ‘har-de-ned”. I say ‘har-dend’.)

Haiku Me Friday! The Little Green Jedi

I’m not sure I’ve written much on Yoda.  Yeah, sure, I mention him here and there but I don’t think I’ve ever really written a post on him.

I believe that’s because over the years I’ve become disillusioned with him.  I loved him when I was younger and his advice is still so solid.  Even now, who can resist saying to themselves…

Do.  Or do not.  There is no try.

…when you are trying to tackle some hurdle, physical or mental?

Yet over the years, and watching the Prequels, I began to think that Yoda just did not get it.  In a way, he was the leader of the Jedi Council (for 800 years, mind you!) and though I do think that he was still wise, I’m not sure he was an encouraging leader with Anakin.  If you’re supposed to lead by example, I’m not sure he was the most understanding.  I think over those hundreds of years, he executed a more watchful lifestyle, instead of stepping in where maybe he was needed.

Sometimes, I see those same traits pop up when Luke comes to train with him and it frustrates me.  I can understand his fear with taking on Luke, he is Anakin’s son after all and we all know how that went, but he also could be your last hope!  Maybe I’m the eternal optimist who feels like you should always hope and not give up.  If Obi-Wan hadn’t said anything, would Yoda have turned away Luke permanently?

But all that aside, he does have some great quotes.  I also loved how he acted so crazy in the beginning of ESB.  Do you guys ever watch that again and laugh?  Even though I’ve seen that movie so many times, I love crazy Yoda!  He is adorable, funny, and so out of character from all the other movies.

Here are some of my favorite quotes from the little green Jedi Master:

  1. Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.
  2. You will know when you are calm, at peace. Passive. A Jedi uses the Force for knowledge and defense, never for attack.
  3. Luke: I can’t believe it. Yoda: That is why you fail.
  4. Anger, fear, aggression; the dark side of the Force are they. Easily they flow, quick to join you in a fight. If once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny, consume you it will.
  5. Heh. Excitement. Heh. A Jedi craves not these things.
  6. Always in motion is the future.

What’s your favorite Yoda quote?  Do you hold him in high esteem or was he never your favorite?

He lived a long time A little Jedi Master Green, wrinkly, and wise

He lived a long time
A little Jedi Master
Green, wrinkly, and wise